Merry Xmas.

Posted: 2015-12-25 in Anja, Thoughts For The Day

Gradually accede to the inevitable.

As today becomes tomorrow.

And memories become as half-forgotten dreams, less tangible than vaguely familiar old movie scenes.

Except for the painful, the personal betrayals and hurts,

oh, Jesus, how they still smart!

 

Thinking hundreds of thoughts and not feeling at liberty to express a single one (the last one you tried, how awkwardly you articulated…). No one really understands or wants to hear. No one really cares. The spoken word is insufficient, and so often held against you – death by a thousand cuts.

And life.

I hold the candle and describe myself: Detached, Disappointed, Loner, Defiant.

Life is a Christmas movie gone wrong.

Melancholy as I reflect on what isn’t and see what is.

Happy Birthday, Jesus.

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