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No, English isn’t my first language,

perhaps that affects my writing now.


As far as I recall,

the first words I spoke

in this life-form

were neither Russian nor German

but babyish gibberish.




Immediately before, during and after climax,

when I have no control,

ecstatic for the moment,

a cascade of negative images,


hurts and enemies,

floods through my mind’s eye.

Utter violation,

perverted blasphemy.

It’s distressing



to be assaulted thus

in a private moment of bliss.