Archive for the ‘Меланхолия’ Category

Broken 3

I do, but I don’t.

I will, but I won’t.

Conflicted and afflicted,

do you think I like being this way?








Black Square, Grunge Frame

Blank page, joyful thing.

Endless possibilities…

Limited by state.








Hot Air Balloon 1

Melancholy pervades today’s celebration.

Constant fragility.

Memories of yesterday,

betrayal and pain,

shaping tomorrow.

What hope?








Walking Away_ Wm c Suitcase

We’re on the same page,

a sense of deliberate disconnectedness from present time & place

(which, to me it is clear, we can’t positively change).

It’s nice, while it lasts,

remembering the past,

acknowledging the hopelessness of the present

by extension.

Until she gets back to today,

torment and strain,

and like a TV preacher,


she declares

we need


“make it happen”!

Inside, I walk away.









Nothing is impossible,

it seems,

except improvement

of situation.









With cynical pessimism,

pervading futility

and innate despair,

I embark on each new day…



Somehow, however,

deep within, I feel,


things, ultimately,

will be okay.









Where once there was possibility,

now there is misery.











9.24 Pregnant Wm & Girl

It used to be

that seeing and hearing such things

intrigued, stimulated,

inspired me.

Now, instead, they mock

and scorn,

reminding me of things that should have been,

of bloody reality,

and treacheries that broke my heart.








Surgut, Storm Looms

Tired and forlorn,

every day seems

a perfect storm.








Stroitelstvo-v-Sulazhgore (Karelia)

Right day, wrong year…

*Fuck, shit, suck!*

Another year older

and wiser…

And how I realize

Winter’s are too short!