Degraded Relationship

If ever she says:

“I’m proud of you.”

It will be tinged

with the sadness of knowing,

for me,

it is not true.

 

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Fleeting Fulfillment, Faith Fades, Futility Bites.

Yesterday’s miracle,

today’s distant memory.

The beautiful and divine

supplanted by

everyday

shit.

…

I was grateful,

truly

I was,

essentially human, however,

I always want more.

…

A glimmer is never enough,

fallen world,

hopelessness surges,

overwhelms.

 

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Taxes, Lies & Death

The government taxes you,

to provide

and to protect you…

With and from what? (I ask)

… Sinkholes, potholes,

a trail of breadcrumbs through the forest …

Indeed, the system taxes

and exploits you for itself!

*They* create and perpetuate

shit and spectres,

fear and loathing

the lubricant of their machine.

The authorities are parasitic,

the populace delusional

and busy exploiting their

friends, neighbours

and own subjects.

 

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Evil, Yesterday & Today, Nothing New… Part 3. (Yes, Cover Your Children’s Eyes!)

Today, they convert you

to their perverted way of thinking,

seducing,

enticing

and delighting certain tendencies.

(Clever, addictive storylines on your TV & computer screen…)

They inhabit and take over,

your soul and being,

leaving no space or desire

for resistance.

(Indeed, I wonder which evil was worse, and how:

then or now…)

 

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Evil, Yesterday & Today, Nothing New… Part 2. (Yes, Cover Your Children’s Eyes!)

Yesterday, they occupied you physically,

totally,

and made you pay, as they saw it, for the “privilege”.

The Nazis were a diabolical force.

Today, they occupy you mentally,

emotionally,

totally,

and make you pay, as they see it, for the “privilege”.

Nazis live, in government and media,

dictatorship by stealth,

democratic and liberal cloak.

 

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Evil, Yesterday & Today, Nothing New… (Yes, Cover Your Children’s Eyes!)

I’d been reading about a(nother) manifestation of Third Reich evil.

And my American friend told me about the TV series she’d been watching.

Strangely,

sadly,

disturbingly,

it’s difficult for me to assess which is worse,

more decadent, more evil, more *wrong*…

Nazi debauchery, 1943,

or American “entertainment”, 2018?

 

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Fallen World, Zoo Walls, Broken Souls

Some people seem to like

the constant struggle

of life in this world.

The ceaseless battle

motivates and stimulates,

providing willpower

to get up each morning.

Other people

are repulsed

and sucked dry

by such futility.

They know they’ll never win

in this corrupt system.

For them,

deep thinkers

and bottom feeders,

life is a kind of death.

 

©SvetkaSamizdat

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Tomorrow A Wedding, Innocent And White. Tonight, English Scum.

(Sitting at a table,

wondering when exactly

Central Europe became a

destination for Anglo-Saxon trash.)

…

The English girls were there to celebrate,

and tonight that meant denigrate

themselves

and the guy on stage.

Some kind of pre-wedding party,

a last expression of freedom,

all good fun and games,

which is to say

drunken debauchery.

They had a stripper,

a tall guy, athletic,

no tattoos,

from my corner, I liked the view.

Obviously he got naked,

and the girls went crazy,

grabbing and groping,

the guy became hard,

my eyes widened:

was this part of the act?

The girls screamed with delight,

ear-piercingly loud

(tomorrow’s headache now!),

one started to pull on the guy,

another pushed her aside and devoured his penis,

deepthroating him,

he grimaced,

surely this wasn’t meant to be.

The girls hollered and brayed,

demented apes,

all touching what they could,

all at once,

it was repulsive,

it was rape.

The guy looked shell-shocked,

he tried to move away.

They laughed at his limpness

and rubbed cum on his face.

Only when the waitress brought more drinks

did they lose interest.

…

They laughed and giggled,

what fun and memories,

for the English girls,

office workers, nurses, lawyers, teachers,

pillars of society

and hypocrisy.

Tomorrow a wedding,

innocent and white.

Next year a mother.

Children born

sons of bitches,

literally…

and

mommy’s

fingers

lingering

obscenely.

 

©SvetkaSamizdat

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Досье CXCI: Half-Life.

And so you make do with whatever peaceful moment you can grab.

Relax.

No matter how banal.

Sigh.

Alas.

Just wait!

…

It’s a hell of a way to live:

Waiting for the next catastrophe,

knowing it’s gotta be near.

Knowing your mediocre “idyll” won’t last.

Knowing a complication is coming,

fear, fear, fear!

…

Half-Life lessons.

 

©SvetkaSamizdat

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Досье CXXXIII: No Wonder They Lock The Deep Thinkers Away…

Human existence…

Limited resistence.

…

Every now and then you run into a wall,

jaded, wise and cynical,

you realize the futility of it all.

…

Thousands of years of evolution,

one way or another,

for this?

(Poxy pinnacle!)

…

Why do we go on?

(Deluding ourselves with stupid songs…)

…

As a species,

when our primal urges are thwarted,

frustrated,

our lofty ambitions of improvement fail,

banality and futility reign,

and there is no hope,

what,

what is there left to live for?

 

©SvetkaSamizdat

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