Глава 2012: Hope Springs…

As is natural among the desperate

(which is to say, most of us),

she reads too much into the other’s gesture.

…

Hope springs, somewhat eternal,

beyond inevitable;

we don’t *truly* want to believe infernal.

 

(To be continued…)

       

©SvetkaSamizdat

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Глава 2011: Digression (aka Knowledge Potential)

The digression

seems to waste my time,

distract my focus, seep my energy.

But, really, “waste” is such a loaded judgment,

and how will I know until tomorrow (or beyond),

the enrichment that this digression might bring.

 

(To be continued…)

       

©SvetkaSamizdat

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Глава 2010: “Just Words”

We laud chefs,

yet food passes away.

Words, however, if we have an active brain,

remain, develop, flower.

 

(To be continued…)

       

©SvetkaSamizdat

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Глава 2009: Sequence

That thing which I seemed to brush off yesterday,

haunts and taunts me today,

makes me less likely to…

Do anything tomorrow.

 

(To be continued…)

       

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Глава 2008: *Some* Experience, Unique, Like Fingerprints…

Pain seeps soul away;

or maybe it’s who we are:

sum experience.

 

(To be continued…)

       

©SvetkaSamizdat

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Глава 2007: Time, As Gravity, We Can Measure, But Not Master

Time marches on,

relentlessly, mercilessly, mockingly.

Time evaporates,

desecrates, eviscerates, obliterates.

Hope, gone.

Resistance, futile.

Tomorrow, die, or do it all again.

 

(To be continued…)

       

©SvetkaSamizdat

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Глава 2006: On “Illegitimacy” (aka: This Child Exists)

She referred to herself as an illegitimate child.

“Really?” I replied. “Why denigrate yourself so?”

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“Illegitimacy”. Surely an offensive and outdated term.

In these supposedly liberal and progressive times,

why would such a concept remain?

Yet, in “advanced Western” contexts I hear it repeatedly.

As if an inherent shame stalks the child forevermore.

Bizarre! I thought such ideas had died out long ago.

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To me, all children are legitimate.

It’s got nothing to do with parentage.

The child simply exists.

Indeed, if you prick them do they not bleed?

Words, certainly cut asunder.

…

Then I reflected, was reminded:

the concept of illegitimacy,

cloaked in bogus morality,

actually has more to do with greed

and bourgeois inheritance imperatives.

Do you agree?

 

(To be continued…)

       

©SvetkaSamizdat

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Глава 2005: Perverted Extortion

So, I received an email… It’s quite well worded,

sufficient to cause alarm.

Apparently, somebody has my “password”,

and, magically, they also have video of me masturbating

(allegedly, I like some strange stuff).

Imagine!

And, tomorrow, if I don’t pay the bitcoin ransom,

“they” will send the video to people in my contacts list:

parents, family, friends, boss, whatever.

How unsettling!

And, “they” say, I will never be able to

look my contacts in the eye again.

… Regardless, tomorrow the “joke” will be on “them”.

 

(To be continued…)

       

©SvetkaSamizdat

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Глава 2004: Treatise On A Day Of Agony

It starts with a myriad of thoughts,

brain-flooding, torrent of negativity.

Then, all-consuming agony,

radiating from my head

to my everything.

I drift in & out of consciousness,

transitioning into a throbbing nothingness,

where pain overwhelms, totally,

making thought beyond the agony’s essence

impossible.

… This is existence?

 

(To be continued…)

       

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Глава 2003: Definitions, Helpful & Burdensome

Repetitive, incoherent, negative.

Sometimes, but aren’t we all?

Stresses of life, system, thinking, toll.

Confusion.

… Unpoetic? Never!

Philosophical? Always!

… When I was a child, I had a rock collection.

 

(To be continued…)

       

©SvetkaSamizdat

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