Lofty delusions of grandeur
weighed down by anchors of the past;
experience of betrayal prevents progress,
depresses.
(To be continued…)
©SvetkaSamizdat
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Sitting quietly, eating, trying to savor, tasting…
when I remember one thing, then another,
and memories come cascading,
cruelly, exponentially,
chain reaction in full flow,
past humiliations, degradations, violations,
betrayals, pains near and afar,
flooding my whole being,
overwhelming, sickening.
And I don’t want to eat any more,
I don’t want to taste or feel
or experience any more,
I only want nothingness.
I need to somehow escape…
Meal of hate.
(To be continued…)
©SvetkaSamizdat
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Some things, incomprehensible to others,
are extremely meaningful to me (and, let’s say, you),
and we do and believe beyond “reason”,
and it feels right and proper,
being led by inner prompting,
touching something ethereal, yet substantial,
eternal, elemental, Je ne sais quoi.
Healing, wholeness, and peace …
Happy Epiphany!
(To be continued…)
©SvetkaSamizdat
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